Love?

Sometimes I feel like I have so much love, I don't know where or whom to put it. I'm scared because when you love people too much, it suffocates them. My brain never stop, I have so much feelings to write, to say and to give. I want to describe every little thing, how it looks, how it makes me feel and how much love I have for it. I want to write letters for everyone I ever know and tell them how much they made an impact on me, no matter how short it was. I want to hug everyone who has saved me a chair when I'm late, those who buy something for me because it reminds them of me, those who greeted me on my birthday, those who understands that sometimes I'm quiet, those who opens up to me about everything, those who laughs at my corny jokes, those who hangs out with me all the time, those who makes sure I was safe, those who I admire from afar and just everyone who made me feel like I exist. I can't describe how much love I have for these people but I always want to show it. Yet, I always believed that giving too much love can make you a loser because it might scare people away so I always suppress myself. Do you have any idea how many words I've written in my archive notes? So many, sometimes I cry while I write them because I want the person I'm writing about, to know how I see them, how they make me feel and how I could give them everything whether they'll do the same for me or not and its sad that they'll never see the way I see them. I always make sure that I only give enough love, just something they need so they'll never think I'm being too much.