How Do I Choose Myself

Growing up, all your decisions are made and influenced by your parents, relatives or friends. You never really decide for yourself and siguro isa din yun sa factor kung bakit hanggang ngayon it’s really hard for you to tell kung ano yung totoong gusto mo or kahit piliin man lang yung sarili mo over anyone or anything hindi mo magawa.

It’s already 2020, but here you are still confuse if where you are right know will make you happy or not? They might never understand the question “How do I choose myself” because it’s yourself, how come hindi mo kayang piliin yung sarili mo over anyone right? But you, you always wonder why can’t you choose yourself over anyone?

Sinulat ko to kasi I just realize, theres a lot of people na never pinili yung sarili nila. First, you’re sorry sa mga friends mo kasi you can’t help yourself but feel kinda jelous of them, they are in the place where they always wanted to be while you’re here taking things not because this is your passion but because this is what your family and relatives wanted you to be and as always mas gugustuhin mong piliin sila kesa sarili mo. Secondly, you’re not happy with your classmates / close na classmates that you are sorrounded with. They constantly make you feel bad about yourself,  you know you already sck at making yourself feel better tapos dadagdag pa yung mga taong nakapaligid sayo. And you really really wanted to take those kind of people out of your life pero alam mong hindi mo kaya, hindi mo kaya na may masaktan ka just because you wanted yourself to be in peace.

Wala ka namang choice kung hindi pillin yung mga gusto nila kesa sa gusto mo. Wala ka namang choice kung hindi masaktan kesa makasakit. Sabi nga diba “People around us gives meaning to our life”. But if you choose yourself would your life become meaningless?