Choosing Art

Choosing Art

When do I start making art? When do I start loving it? Why do I choose making art out of all things? I must say, art chooses me. At first, nakikigaya lang ako sa mga classmates ko halos lahat kasi sila nagdadraw at usong-uso pa nun yung mga anime so nagdradraw sila lagi ng mga anime it looks interesting kaya naisip ko why not try?

After some years, highschool na ko and unlike before never na ulit ako humawak ng kahit na anong pang drawing. Maybe I become busy, mas madami ng schoolworks ang highschool and beside that mas madami na kong mga kaibigan at mas naeenjoy ko na yun kesa ang pagdadrawing. This is when I thought art, drawing or painting wasn’t really for me. I thought I will never go back at it again. Not until everything falls apart.

Highschool is one of the hardest time in our life. I experience a lot of things during my highschool days, I lost people, I lost myself, I change and etc. Ito yung time na parang wala ng patutunguhan and buhay ko. Wala na kong dreams, walang passion at sobrang daling mag give up sa lahat ng bagay. Is there something meant for me? Do I have a passion? What do I love doing? What is my dream? Who am I?

Suddenly, years after years of finding, art finds me. I was scrolling through my Instagram and as I was scrolling may nakita kong calligraphy sobrang ganda, I thought pano nila nagagawa yun and so I tried. Sa una I feel disappointed pano ba naman kasi ang pangit ng gawa ko but I never stop. Finally nagagawa ko ng mag calligraphy, nasasatisfy at nagagandahan na ko but again I never stop from that, maybe because I was searching for more. Naalala ko sabi ko nun ‘ang boring naman ng calligraphy ko’ I was thinking ano kaya kung may background? And that’s where I started using watercolor and I fell inlove with it and started exploring.

Here I am, nagpepaint na rin ng portrait using watercolor. I used to be sad, tired and negative about life but when I started choosing art for myself I finally feel happy. I am enjoying myself. Tama nga sila if it was meant for you, it will be yours.

Painting my dad using watercolor